Post by Eragon on Oct 29, 2012 16:11:36 GMT -5
Hey guys. I'm getting off for awhile of my own accord, and before you freak out here's why.
I've been putting this site in the place in my life where God should be. In short, I've made it an idol because I pay more attention to it than the Creator, and He is so infinitely more important than anything else. For the past two months I was actually not supposed to be on during the weekdays according to my mom, but . . . like I said, it's become an idol. That rule was revoked the other day, but still. I disobeyed my mom and by doing that God. In fact I wonder if I'd done that this wouldn't have become an idol if I only came on during the weekends. Even when I wasn't on here, this is where my mind was, daydreaming. Not that there's anything wrong with daydreaming. It's just that this started taking precedence over God because my mind would wander to whatever thread was going on at the moment when I was trying to pray and concentrate on Him, and He has done so much for me by providing for my spiritual and physical needs that presenting Him with anything less than whole-hearted devotion is just down right rude. Which is why I am so thankful that He is full of forgiveness and gives it freely. Lord knows I need it every five seconds.
It also took up time that I now realize should have, at least part, been spent reading the Bible and praying. Bread in the Bible is symbolic of God's Word, so in the Lord's Prayer when it says "Give us this day our daily bread" it literally is meaning the Word of God. Without it I've basically been starving spiritually. So I'm taking time off to get my heart straight with God and get into the habit of reading the Bible more, and I find that I really like writing my prayers out.
So it's not y'all, it's me. I messed up, and I'm sorry because I honestly do think that if I had restrained myself this probably wouldn't have become an issue. My youth leader shared a poem with us a few weeks ago about being a Christian, and the main point was that saying you're a Christian is the most humbling thing that can ever come from your lips because you are admitting that you aren't perfect and as low and wretched as is even conceivable. Actually inconceivable, because I think it's just as tough to grasp the idea of how sinful human nature is as it is to understand God's love. It's saying that you aren't holy or righteous, but the God we continually sin against is and He is the one who makes us righteous when we accept Him because He gives us Jesus' righteousness and transforms us to be holy like Him. Saying "I'm a Christian" is a diatribe of my own shortcomings, and an exultation of the greatness of His love and mercy.
So anyways, I'm sorry because this really is my fault, and if y'all get mad, I completely understand. I don't know how long I'm going to take off (not permanently, I hope). This whole passage has just been an explanation of why I'm getting off, it's not a speech. Sorry, I know it sounds like it . . . I could talk about God all day (not joking), so I'm just glad this isn't longer! In the meantime . . . please don't let this site die while I'm gone because that would just be heartbreaking!
I've been putting this site in the place in my life where God should be. In short, I've made it an idol because I pay more attention to it than the Creator, and He is so infinitely more important than anything else. For the past two months I was actually not supposed to be on during the weekdays according to my mom, but . . . like I said, it's become an idol. That rule was revoked the other day, but still. I disobeyed my mom and by doing that God. In fact I wonder if I'd done that this wouldn't have become an idol if I only came on during the weekends. Even when I wasn't on here, this is where my mind was, daydreaming. Not that there's anything wrong with daydreaming. It's just that this started taking precedence over God because my mind would wander to whatever thread was going on at the moment when I was trying to pray and concentrate on Him, and He has done so much for me by providing for my spiritual and physical needs that presenting Him with anything less than whole-hearted devotion is just down right rude. Which is why I am so thankful that He is full of forgiveness and gives it freely. Lord knows I need it every five seconds.
It also took up time that I now realize should have, at least part, been spent reading the Bible and praying. Bread in the Bible is symbolic of God's Word, so in the Lord's Prayer when it says "Give us this day our daily bread" it literally is meaning the Word of God. Without it I've basically been starving spiritually. So I'm taking time off to get my heart straight with God and get into the habit of reading the Bible more, and I find that I really like writing my prayers out.
So it's not y'all, it's me. I messed up, and I'm sorry because I honestly do think that if I had restrained myself this probably wouldn't have become an issue. My youth leader shared a poem with us a few weeks ago about being a Christian, and the main point was that saying you're a Christian is the most humbling thing that can ever come from your lips because you are admitting that you aren't perfect and as low and wretched as is even conceivable. Actually inconceivable, because I think it's just as tough to grasp the idea of how sinful human nature is as it is to understand God's love. It's saying that you aren't holy or righteous, but the God we continually sin against is and He is the one who makes us righteous when we accept Him because He gives us Jesus' righteousness and transforms us to be holy like Him. Saying "I'm a Christian" is a diatribe of my own shortcomings, and an exultation of the greatness of His love and mercy.
So anyways, I'm sorry because this really is my fault, and if y'all get mad, I completely understand. I don't know how long I'm going to take off (not permanently, I hope). This whole passage has just been an explanation of why I'm getting off, it's not a speech. Sorry, I know it sounds like it . . . I could talk about God all day (not joking), so I'm just glad this isn't longer! In the meantime . . . please don't let this site die while I'm gone because that would just be heartbreaking!